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Hi! I’m Steph’s cousin Matthew Smith. I just wanted to write something’s
to show people who have friends, family members or even themselves who are
thinking of suicide. I just wanted to show you that people do care! I’m
certainly am going to miss her and the things we did together. Things like
going to the movies, swimming, listening to music, playing tennis (even
though she beat me all the time}, or just hanging out.
The worst
part of suicide is that you never know when it’s going to happen. Like a
couple of weeks or less I just saw her and she was just fine. Then one
night I came home from Rival at church and got a call from my Uncle saying
Steph had committed suicide. And I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore. I
had a couple of nights where I couldn’t sleep. So it goes to show people
really do care if you don’t know.
There’s sometimes I just wish life was
like a VCR. So that you can just rewind and redo your mistakes, or add
stuff. If I could I would tell her that I loved her, and that other people
loved her, even your worst enemies and friends. Just because they don’t
show it doesn’t mean they don’t. Cause I can’t see how anyone could not
like the most gorgeous and talented person in the world. Then you just have
to look back and ask yourself the one word question. WHY! Why would you,
or I do such a thing? Why would I even think or try to do that?
But I
guess you have to look at the bright side of things. At least she’s in a
better place, called “HEAVEN”! Even though we can’t see her, she probably
is watching over us. I end this by saying goodbye and I LOVE YOU! |
